it's been a while since i last posted and ito pa ang maipo-post ko. masakit isipin na parang kelan lang eh nag-post ako na na-hospital sya. then last tuesday (08-12-08) lang, he finally left us.

it was all of a sudden. shocking kasi nung sunday (08-10-08) lang nginingiti-ngitian nya ako nung dumalaw ako. tinanong nya kung san si benedict, sabi ko nasa bahay. then he told me, "wag mo syang pababayaan ha." then i told him, "sige, pagaling ka na." then he slept again. i was to go back the next day (08-11-08) kaso dahil sa abnormal na panahon, sumakit ulo ako. so sabi ni mama, kinabukasan na lang daw. eh kaso hindi na nga ako nakabalik kasi iniwan na nya kami at 9:30am.

it was hard. sobrang hirap tanggapin na ganun ang nangyari. hanggang ngayun may part pa rin ng utak ko na ayaw i-accept 'yung fact na wala na si papa; na pinaglamayan na namin sya at bukas ay libing na nya. parang feeling ko lahat ng nangyayari eh parang isang eksena sa pelikula o teleserye na napapanood ko lang o isang masamang panaginip at gusto ko na magising, parang napaka-unbelievable ng lahat.

nung una, sobrang sakit para sa akin. nung first 2 days, talagang naiiyak ako everytime tinitignan ko sya sa coffin nya. then si mama, 3 days umiiyak every now and then. tsaka makikita mo na sobrang lungkot nya.

sa ngayun, medyo natatanggap na namin na ganun talaga. hanggang dun na lang. tsaka walang huling habilin si papa eh. wala naman syang sinabi kay mama. so ibig sabihin, talaga lang tapos na ung mission nya sa mundo kaya kinuha na sya. naisip namin na mas okay na 'yun kesa naman sa pahirapan pa sya ng sakit nya. buti nga ilang buwan lang sya naghirap. d tulad nung iba na taon ang binibilang.

salamat nga pala dun sa mga nakiramay. dun sa mga pumunta, salamat ng marami. dun sa mga tumawag, nag-text, nag-message, salamat din. natuwa naman ako kasi ang dami ko palang tunay na kaibigan. na-touch naman ako kasi akala ko iilan lang kayo. salamat din sa mga prayers. maraming salamat talaga.

don't worry guys, we'll be fine. andyan lang naman si papa. hindi naman nya kami pababayaan. alam nyo naman, i'm strong. hehe. masaya na rin ako kasi alam kong masaya na si papa kasama ng lolo at lola ko.

if you want to view my entries, just add me and i'll add back. thanks. ^_^

something i got from 'te jacq and jazz.

Which Advent Children character are you? Find out here!

 

What Type of Killer Are You? [cool pictures]

You are an assassin. That means you are a proffessional and do your job without mixing any emotions in it. In your life you have probably been hurt many times and have gotten some mental scars. This results in you being distant from people. Though many think that you are evil, you are not. What you really are is a person, trying to forget your pain and past. You are the person who never seems to care and that is why being an assassin fits you good. Atleast, that's what people think. Even if you don't care that much for your victims, you still have the ability to care and to generally feel. It is not lost, just a little forgotten. In crowds you tend to not get to noticed, and dress in black or other discrete colours. You don't being in the spotlight and wish people would just leave you alone. But once you do get close to someone you have a hard time letting go and get real down if you loose him/her. Main weapon: Sniper Quote:"The walls we build around us to keep out the sadness also keep out the joy" -Jim Rohn Facial expression: Narrowed eyes Take this quiz! Quizilla | Join | Make A Quiz | More Quizzes | Grab Code

Dear Santa... Dear Santa, This year I've been busy! In April I donated bone marrow to kanipan in a life-saving procedure (300 points). In July I punched mirida in the arm (-10 points). Last Thursday I gave dark_dasku a life-saving blood transfusion (50 points). Last Friday I helped nemu_asakura hide a body (-173 points). In January I bought porn for reinster (-10 points). Overall, I've been nice (157 points). For Christmas I deserve a new dolly! </lj></lj></lj></lj></lj> Sincerely, yoru_morino

Write your letter to Santa! Enter your LJ username:

LOL.

naburaot ko from menismastah and schuri_requiem.


Find your Celestial Choir

craving for nagaraya bbq favor and green mango. damn. >_>

naburaot ko from vain_worshipper and freudian_bitch.

Write 20 names of your friend in random then answer the questions below:

1. pedarce.
2. donndee.
3. sanne.
4. lamke.
5. gelo.
6. tina.
7. lea.
8. kuya adz.
9. nelo.
10. jan (wetpax).
11. jehu.
12. twen yoj.
13. cis.
14. cathy.
15. GM JL.
16. tito benj.
17. ate louanne.
18. kuya dasku.
19. mii-chan.
20. arashi-kun.


How did you meet 13?
~~~ when i attended weareanime-dalnet EB last september 2000.

What do you honestly think of 10?
~~~ he's so nice and fun to be with. =))

Have you ever liked 3?
~~~ not really. i didn't honestly think that we'll be bestfriends. ^_^

Would 2 and 11 go out?
~~~ dun think so. o_o they dun know each other. o_o;

Do you think 12 is hot?
~~~ YEAH!!! *yuri mode*

Who is 8 going out with?
~~~ AHAHAHA. meron ba kuya adz? >]

When was the last time you talked to 5?
~~~ hmm. before he left for bora. nung 22 lang, i think.

What is 1's favorite band?
~~~ not so sure. dami nya fave eh. o_o;

Does 2 have a crush on 4?
~~~ WAHAHAHA. that'll be impossible!! we, in our barkada, treat each other as siblings. ^_^

Would you ever date 6?
~~~ my baby sis? SURE~ why not? *yuri mode*

what is 19s last name?
~~~ tan. =D

What does 17 look like?
~~~ hmm. B-E-A-utiful and S-E-X-Y. *ahem* *ahem* i think i heard someone objecting. >]

what is 10's fantasy?
~~~ not so sure. i think he just want to be loved. o_o

What school does 1 go to?
~~~ chang kai shek college.

say anything to 14..
~~~ musta na? hope ur doing fine. ^_^

Where does 9 live?
~~~ somewhere in españa.

Are 5 and 6 best friends?
~~~ WE ARE. =D i think so. o_o; not bestfriends, maybe close friends. o_o

what's 15's favorite expression?
~~~ ^_^ mahilig cya mag smile eh. o_o;

have you ever fought with 16?
~~~ yeah. o_o lagi nya akong inaapi. ahuhuhu. T_T

do you love 4?
~~~ VERY MUCH!!! wabshu bes~

what do u think about no. 20?
~~~ miss ko na cya. T_T arashi-kun~ nocturne but sweet. =D

is no. 18 inlove?
~~~ i think so. =D

what kind of relationship does no. 7 and u have?
~~~ she's my loving online daughter~ MWAH! miss j00 anakz~ T_T